5 minutes blog......

yes, i only have 5 minutes to spare myself on this rantfull blog of mine....
lets see.... oh yea, yesterday i scratched another car costing me an estimated, ESTIMATED RM300(+/-) to get the car fixed... n that's the total cost for 2 cars... its only 1 car(the 'victim') who suffered minor, but deep scrathes in on the rear body section & minor scratches at the bumper area... i shudder to think of how much mine will cost me....
ever since i got a job this year, i've suffered financial shit holes;
1. breaking up with ex(yes, i know this has nothing todo with my financial woes....)
2. crashed HDD that costed me RM400 to get a new HDD
3. busted car engine that costed me RM500+ just to get it all fixed
4. govt pushies telling me i owe them WADS of dough & threaten to turn my life into a living hell unless i sign their diabolic agreement in blood & cough up the greens
5. scratched a car yesterday & having to pay for the pain job...

HECK NO! i will not ask my parent's for help... last time they did, i nearly got my ass sued for it.... & instead settling for less than RM500 worth of repairs, i ended up paying RM1K+ just cos the owner of the car is a lawyer!!
i'm hungry, cold & twichty....

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i have no idea wat ot name this post.... personally, couldnt care less bout it....
jes read a friend's blog today (macdyne.blogspot.com) & it got me psychologically pulled back to the time when.....SHIT happened.
and sadly, it still is.... although not that intense but still often enough....
long hell drama cut short;
i had been slapped, whipped, pulled, screamed at, humilliated & GOD knows wat else...
in turn i had my own share of pain inflicting...
namely my younger bro.... but it's been 10+ years since i did that... he still annoys me... alot.
back to current matters;
i have made resolutions about the same time that i lost my old 20GB hard drive that nobody goes in or outta my room without me being in my room....
everytime i go out, to work, eat downstairs, watch tv, etc... i lock my room, my room key in my pocket & the spare in my room...
last week, my dad asked for the key & i replied him (in wat i called a soft-spoken manner) why would u want my room key?
at that point, i saw him getting fired up, n he was like explosively barking back at me bout something like losing my keys, forgettting to bring them with me & having to tear the door down again or some shit like that....
naturally, me having inheritted his bad temper & hard-head, i would yell back at him & we'd be exploding or endup exchanging sandwhiches...
but i didnt, i just answered him calmly(i am seriously trying FREAKING HARD not to bite his head off!!) that i wont be that forgetful to let something like that happen & if they ever need anything in my room, i'd be happy to get it myself or leave it outside my room...
my dad just said "aah!!! (some chinese words that i cant translate to english)"... & i left them.....
my mum, well, my relationship with her is better than me & my dad, but still not in the 'good' category....
personally, she still is a racist & that is why i dont invite my friends to my place during festivals....
and i think i annoy her too, cos im not a chinese, well at least not by paper... she says i'm 3/4 chinese, so u should say u're chinese wen ppl ask u...
wat the ****?!
times i've wondered if i was adopted....& thought of breaking all realtions with my family & wipe my ass off the face of this earth....
ah shit! now im fucking depressed....
anyways..................................
sorry if this post is alittle long in the tooth... i was busy downloading a huge archive of documentation so i can convert them back to pdf or sumthing...
and if i dont make sense in the next few paragraphs, it means im too hungry, tired, & cold to focus my thoughts...
probably that's y i have a 'cautious' outlook to the world. i mean if someone were to do ill harm to me, i'd be suing their asses for wat they're worth & i'm ok with that. but if someone were nice to me, i'd be extremely uncomfortable with that, i'd be thinking "wat the hell was that for?! wat do u want from me?!"
fuck im hungry...

solid wall

and as if it couldnt get any worse than this.....
blur? lemme wipe the fog....
3 days back, i just received a 'love-letter' from the govt. body & u can b sure wat it means... anyway's i might reveal the content of the trouble but if i do, i'm afraid that this blog will mysteriously dissappear & all records of my existence, wiped off the face of this planet...
but, i'll give u guys a hint for the ppl who r living in the same country as i am; PTPTN.
other than that, sorry if this blog was quiet for a while...
i'm flat broke, therefore i cant afford another visit to the CC to update my life's ranting of how life sux...
in another shitty incident, btw, this incident happened before the trouble i mentioned earlier on...
there i was, at home, lazying on the couch watching the simpsons, when my bro came down from my room & said these words which will haunt me for a long time;
"how come ur pc keeps on saying disk boot failure?"
at that moment, i knew the worst had happened; my harddisk has crashed & burned & gone to digital heaven/hell(whichever i couldnt care less...)
just when i made up my mind to backup my games & projects & mp3's & videos & watever else that i downloaded off the net...
and so after a moment of swearing & tantrum throwing, i called up a fren, bought his 120GB HDD, & proceeded to get my machine running again...
yes, yes i've heard & know of ways to restore & perhaps salvage some of the data in the busted drive & i've tried all the tools that i have & know, but to no avail...
farewell, 10GB's of my digital life....
and so, begins my journey of life, in pain, suffering & humiliation....

aftermath

right.... most of my frens are still in gawai mode so i'm a little jealous by that but nevermind!!! at least its an unofficial work day for me cos its jes me & my boss... gawai was hectic for me, i drove all the way to a village that's apparently situated next to the kalimantan/indonesia border... tuak was a nice incentive however.... but the liquior named 'Paradise', i think; MAN! that's a killer!!! that stuff tasted terrible!!!
dang! 10 minutes till i get back to work....
"Day After Tommorow" was excellent!! i could've enjoyed my RM9 ticket thoroughly if not for some stinking, long-legged excessively INCONSIDERATE foreign dude that was blocking my view!!! cant belivied he could'nt even sit abit lower!!! i think i straightened my back in the end....
kinda makes u wonder wat might happen if we keep on wasting the earth like that....
another i noticed in the movie... after the 10-day period of the supercell in Asia, sarawak didnt get hit!!!
woohoo!
crap! gotta get back to office!