Beautiful people

You know (yes, i know you don't know what I know now quit being smartsy pantsy), it's kinda funny how serious stuff comes into my mental thoughts at the strangest situations. Like right now, in front of the PC, in a classroom, attending a CAD course on a Friday at 1:45 p.m.

You all pretty much noticed, i mean, it's pretty obvious that all my entries this year are pretty much shallow and incoherent. Incoherent I may be, but writing shallow, superficial stuff like this makes me sounds like a total retard. Well, when I read my own writings again.

So, this is just probably for me and you, the reader to know that, I am perfectly capable of having serious thoughts. Like why do people act the way they do. Let's take that for the:

DEEP PONDERING THOUGHTS OF THE DAY

*in a booming loud voice*

See, some people can be themselves real nice and make other people feel good being around them. Some can be jackass by themselves and people get annoyed. Some just roll their eyes and laugh it off. Some are just laid back and they don't worry too much about things. I mean, poop happens. Some find this an attractive side of that person. Some panic like OMGWTFIMGONNADIE... I, find this, hillarious, and worrying.

Some people just have empathy. In this case, that means:

"The action of understanding, being aware of, being sensitive to, and vicariously experiencing the feelings, thoughts, and experience of another of either the past or present without having the feelings, thoughts, and experience fully communicated in an objectively explicit manner; also : the capacity for empathy"

Just go here for the meaning.

In other words, these people can pick up on other people's emotion. Like when some one's being real anal and other's restraining themselves real hard from smothering him/her with cyanide. Some are just perpetually blur. I know that I can be that, and also a blockhead. And annoying. I find this trait, a love hate thing. seeing some one being blur is funny and adorable if that someone is the one you adore. Annoying when you try to explain the same thing or repeating it again, AND again to the point of you either break down and cry or just laugh it off. But that's just my point of view.

Some people can be the best of pals at one time, flip 360 in a snap like that person is your worst, most hated living creature. By this, most women would attribute that to their time of the month and that's understandable. I've taken my share of battery.

What I'm talking about is the those have been sharpening that scapel-sharp dagger laced with arsenic in secret, waiting for that perfect time to lunge it at the back of your spine, paralysing you chest down, or stab it at your heart, from the side. Then you wonder just what you did to deserve this. Well, nothing, you don't deserve that kind of shit. Just rest assured in your thought that unless this person who did this to you change, their future is bleak. And that's just an understatement.

Some can be independent and flourish. Some need to cling just to survive. This 2 traits will more often than not pave a rough road in any relationships. A sense of gyro balance. Too clingy and it's a tie-down/major turn off. Too independent could result in thinking that things may not work out.

Some people who have taken so much toxic/shit in their lives that they either armor themselves better than a prickly porcuppine or that other animal that rolls into a ball of shield. That, or they use humor to help them tackle their lives. Some just 'switch' off their emotions, that is, they don't give a worms ass about anything and nothing.

Some worry always (nearly always) about what the other person is thinking about them. Some just couldn't be bothered about what others thinks about them.

Some have been living in a world of daisies and some have accepted that life's hard. In such cases when these 2 opposite world's meet, there's always jealousy. One wishing they had an easy life, another admiring the other's steel determination and hard resolve. But from what I've seen and heard in this piece of rock, Ditsy Daisy's would just bury these Little John's with mockery and insults. Konon la ada bank mak bapak ya. Kononla popular gila. Sik cukup gik maok maki hamun orang lain...

Some are just plain intimidated by another. Not that the other person always intimidates them, it's just them being themselves. I should know. It's better then to have that person really intimidating the other.

Some takes their stand on their side based on their own view of the fact of the matter and get worked up about it. Especially when the other person is also the same kind, except that they're looking in the opposite direction. And then they are those who are "in the grey/gray". Not to say that they dont want to take sides and make things worse, but because they can see both their perspective and know that they're either both right, or both wrong. These people have learn to see things in another window. Kinda like being empathy.

But in the end, we all end up wondering why we act the way we act. Because this is a big cauldron of soup, filled with many different spices and herbs and vegetables and meats and stuff. I never said it's perfect, we are they way we are. It's only up to ourselves to fix it, and having friends that can move you to get you to fix it is better. After all, at some point in life, we were like that, or that, or even THAT.

I'm thinking right now that there's alot of people who may feel this hits closer to home. My blog, and I unload what ever shitload off my chest.