MGS Code Name:

Jabroni Jellyfish.
Of all the name to get, Jabroni Jellyfish! Oh well...

What's yours?

Mic Check yo!

I robbed it from her.
Bold = I'm ashamed.
Italic = I'm in loaf!
Underline = Meh, so-so.

Siam Shade - 1/3 no Junjou na Kanjou

Mew - Snow Brigade

Marilyn Manson - Sweet Dreams

Taro Iwashiro - Twist of Time

Red Hot Chillie Peppers - Around the World

Papa Roach - Dendrilopis

Noriyuki Asakura - Warrior's Suite

Fallout Boy - XO

Sarah McLahlan - Fumbling Towards Estacy

Incubus - Deep Inside

Sarah Mclahlan - Sweet Surrender

Sevendust - Denial

Noriyuki Asakura - Underground Garden

Sheila on 7 - Sebuah Kisah Klasik

Audioslave - Heavens Dead

Incubus - Take Me to Your Leader

Muse - Come

Noriyuki Asakura - Justice

Snow Patrol - Same

Sarah McLahlan - Possession

My aching sides!

The nose starts bleeding from the eyes!

That just threw me into a laughing fit which one could say is almost hysteric because by the end of it, I was out of breath, my sides were huring, my chest was about to implode, I'm all teared up, banging my fist onto the table. Kind of like this:

Bu WHA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HAA! HEE! HE! HE! HE! HEE! HOO! HAA! *FUUMP!* HAA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HE! HE! HEE!

I didn't fall of the chair but yeah, you get the picture. Plus, if you know how a hyena sounds like, there you go. Of course, the table behind us and in front of us and the staff plus those outside were probably what kind of drink was being served to us at GK. Us being me, Mac, Jerome, Rin, Zack and Iain.

God, that felt great.

Oh, and on the way back, there was an accident which a Kancil got how I best describe it as ripped to shreds and an old Daihatsu about the size of a Kancil got its front bumper ripped off.

Okay, am off to play Guild Wars now. Enjoy the weekend.

Mindless chatter

Bloody hell. Currently my connection is just toying with me. As I write and chatted online, I must've been disconnected 3 times or more. I know for a fact taht it's nothing to do with my PC because I run regular checks on it for viral, spyware, malware and etc and I don't install anything that doesnt serve my purpose.

And besides, its the DSL lights on the modem that goes down for 3 second before it lights up again and that's how I figured that my WAN IP is changed again.

So what's new? Nothing much, supposed to get my replacement motherboard (papan induk, lol). Dad asked if I wanted to try out a hand as a salesperson in the travel agent line. Eh? But yeah, a jobs better than no job, I guess.

Is it just me or does the Times New Roman font looks... annoying? I don't about you guys but I just dont like how it looks. I have fallen in love with Arial. Cleaner to look at, I think.

Quote of the moment: Relationships is a life long journey of discovery

Speaking of relationships, it takes a lot of communication and continous stamping down of one's ego to make it work I think. I mean honesty and truth is always a good thing but when you dont like what you hear, it's a LOT of effort to swallow it and keep an open minded, all the while it feels like you've been kicked in the balls. Take it from some one (me) who's been in and out of it. Not pretty, but as long you can keep your cool and as long as the significant other can read the subtle body language and facial expression and not push it, yeah.

And how can a guy like me be sure, let alone confident to say some stuff about relationship. Well, past experience and looking at relationship from the looking glass view. And a lot of staying up late nights online gaming while thinking about it when my mind sees fit or even driving home slowly at late hours and thinking about it while keeping myself and my car out of trouble.

I clearly know that this entry is recently (rather) after the commercial procreation day and also if you think I'm subtly hinting at anyone in particular, no. I'm not. This post has been the product of my mind thinking about stuff for the last few months. Yes, months. Took me that long to write this short but then, that's just how my mind works. There are thing I should have not done and said and there are things i should have done and said but then, the damage has been done. All one can do is hopefully recognise it again before you stumble and fall. Crap, I dont even know what I'm saying. Night.

I like the new name

Ah, the commercialised day of affection is done and over. We as in Azreen, Sheldon, Jerom and myself had dinner yesterday despite earlier plans of staying home earlier on. But we didnt get targeted by those rose/hearts seller. We did got approached by that Mainland Chinese saleswomen.

Johari and Nohari. I'm honestly curious to know.

Catfish cooked in durian paste (tempoyak) and lemon grass (serai) soup. You can subsitute catfish for chicken or prawns. Add chillies for that kick. I'll happily have that for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Even if that's the only dish cooked.

=P~

Im sorry & I taste of after-coffee

Much apologies for being AFK from blogging. Chinese New Year, dinner, drunken stupor, bombs, late nights online but not blogging, mental blockade, and the list goes on. Hopefully the regularly scheduled nonsense of bandwidth wastage continues. Heh.

In short, still freelancing, which is a nice way for me to say that yes, I have no jobs, yet. And what on earth am I doing at 4 in the morning? Other than blogging for the first time in a long time of course, is.... actually trying to think of what to say but then, I think the caffeine and the sugar is wearing off now and I just got off Guild Wars some 15 minutes ago.

In tech news, using the human anatomy as a metaphor, Ancient is now a bunch of mush internals. Took out his/her/it skeletal body a.k.a chasis for cutting. Hasn't gotten skin yet. Will get to it soon enough. And there's a new member to the family, curtesy from the downsizing of my previous company. Haven't got a name for it yet, maybe Blackie, since he's/she's/it's got a black colour. Don't know if Im gonna do another mod on that yet but one things for sure, Im gonna spend cash on getting it a new motherboard and new memory to overclock. Yes, every machine that comes to my possession gets pushed to its limit.

In social news, meh. Just hanging out in my usual circle of friends. Chatter and banter. Lots of ice lemon tea and coffee. Lots of laughter and talks(rubbish, nonsense, serious, heart-pouring, discussion, etc.)

What else? Hmm, mum suddenly of all things, talks about this orange throwing thing. Not that I don't know what it means but yeah, of all things to talk about. For those who dont know, it's a belief(i think that's teh word for it) that on Chap Goh Meh (15th night, direct translation) that guys and girls will go to a river and make a wish to find 'the one' and throw that orange into the river. Supposedly, you'll get that person you're looking for as your boy/girl friend/lover/life partner/husband-wife.

Mum, I'm 25, 26 by Chinese calendar and yeah, you don't have to press it to me.

Speaking of which, what kind of a girl I would look for? Not until it was brought up in a conversation, that never really came to mind. Hmm... She'd be witty, as in how i dont know, i guess if you can crack light jokes on the fly i guess that's witty. Smart, definitely not ditzy, blunt, as in if i messed up or piss you off you'd tell it to my face honestly. A person who doesn't kick herself for no reason or when she messed up. Knows how to look good without even trying, yeah yeah so I'm superficial, so? Will not drag me to the dance floor or i'd die of shame and a heart failure from shock. Will not drag me to karaoke places because I have no idea why but i just have this fear of hearing bad voices! Not the intentionally bad singing, but singing badly even though you tried your best but you still suck kind. No offense to anyone but that's just me. And you WANT to spend time to know me and be with me.

I just remembered some time ago I did a meme about the kind of person/lover I am. What I remembered is that I fall in easily, I fall out slowly. Kinda translates to I fall for someone easily, but when it's over, it'll take a long time for me to get over it. I find it hard to swallow, but yeah, it's true. For friends who know me, they can verify that.

That's the thing about the end of a relationship. How do you move on? You know it's gonna be hell for as short as a few days to as long as years and when you think you're over and done with the mourning, the memories don't leave. Ever. And you catch yourself thinking about it or reminising about it, and you feel the sting. I dont know about any of you guys feeling like that because I'm just talking about myself here so yeah, it's never really over isn't it? I mean, not at least until you start anew. Which then comes this, you're in a new relationship, it's going real well, but then, those old memories do come back, well in my head anyway, and even though you're in one, the hurt is still there but now it's managable. The point is, its still there, that pain. If I've lost you in this stream of blabber, don't worry, Im not making much sense myself either.
And yes, I know someone better will come along and yes it will go away and so why am I talking about it still? Because I'm feeling it! And what better way than to rant it off for the whole world to read but practically wont even realise my presence in the sea of zero's and one's.

And does age matter? No, not really. Will I date a younger chick as in under 18? Heck no, too young la. Will I mind if the chick I'm dating is older than my by 2 or 5 years? Not so much. Will racial background be a matter? Not to me but I'm sure mum is gonna raise something if she ain't got Chinese bit in her blood. But I. DONT. Care. Will financial matters affect the realtionship? Why, she earn more money good la, extra splurge for herself and her girlfriends. Will I feel small for not being the breadwinner of the family? Not the least.

Waitaminute, I just had a dejavu. I think I may have written something VERY similiar to this before... Oh well. Enough rant. 4:45 a.m and I must pass out.

P/S: Just remembered and HAD to get it down. Life's a bitch. So? Make it YOUR bitch.

is 5 minutes break such a bad thing?

you know, its a lot better to ask a person what is the person doing rather than blindly accuse them of something they OBVIOUSLY did not do?

By then, I just gave up on trying to say anything.

New Year's Eve, Chinese version

In about 11 hours or so from now, my area and just about anywhere else in Kuching will be turned into a battlefield. Hopefully there won't be any shrapnel but then again, anything can happen eh.

In yesterday's news, I hope that fucking ah beng twat in his fucking cheapass Wira konon maok jadi Lancer tek die in a fucking horrible accident all mangled up. Ah, much better. :D

Tonight, big family dinner, loud explosions all over and days of entertaining guest and relatives and visiting. I end my post with this song.

Do What You Have To Do

What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...

and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize

that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go

a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you

I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go

Ahem

Connection is still wonky. Drained of energry for the day cause by 9 something I'm already feeling the weight of my eyelids. Soles of my feet are aching. My room is piled with books and PC parts, not to mention paintings and flower decorations that was supposed to be put back in place in the living room.

Tomorrow, printer, monitor, more books (geek) and hopefully a box full of network cables. Mmm... cables. Need to think of where to place/fix the shelves that I'll either buy or make myself.

Intersting, as I'm writing this down, my internet connection dropped, again. And yes, I've tried every diagnostics in the book. And just a little FYI, the music clip that they used for the trailer Memories of a Geisha came from the Last Samurai soundtrack. :)

p/s: It took 10 minutes to get a connection just to post this. lol

Sigh

I need a bookshelf. My collection of books just got a major leap. All techy stuff. That's how much of a geek I am. And chances are, I won't bother to open them. That's how much of a bum I am.

Haven't got much to say here except that I've got my hands full. Not killing things in Tyria tonight (i.e online gaming playing Guild Wars) because I lost count after 3,4 IP addresses I got swithched too. That and almost an hour of Internet connection Blackout as in i literally cannot connect. Nothing wrong with my phoneline as fas as I can tell. Nothing fried or smelling like burnt plastic. And Checking the report coming from my modem, it says the last fault why the connection failed was 'VC down'. What the hell is VC anyway?

Piles of books dumped on my bed have nowhere to go. I seriously need a bookshelf. Thinking of building them permanently on my wall. The back of the house has so much wood just waiting to be hacked, sawed, sanded, painted, etc.

Why we have a healthy stockpile of wood at the back of the house? Lets just say my family has this habit of keeping stuff. That I attribute to my granny. The carpenting I got it from dad who probably got it from his dad.

I ended up with having both of those traits in me. Oy...

Oh, and the time it took me to write this all down. I got my IP changed, 6 times. Another thing, Brunei drivers are far more curteous than say, Kuching drivers. I, am a living proof (cussing at your back for driving slow, cutting, not giving way, etc). What else, It's midnight already I reckon and its raining and I should find some space in my crowded bed to sleep. Night.

Lucy, Im home!

I only know 1 person named Lucy and she's a hollywood star.

Anywho, I'm back home in sweet ol' Pussyville I mean Kuching. So much to do and so much thoughts to put down.

So here's what to expect (or not) in upcoming post (if i get my lazy arse to it).

Being awake at late night alone and unable to sleep can be depressing. Especially me, single, alone in a foreign country and damn awake.

The past week in Brunei, I have started dreaming. Thing is, I dont realise that Im dreaming about it till I wake up. And the dreams seemed real. It felt real. Strange, very strange.

Now, I gotta go and settle my resignation and stuff like report writings and the like. Yeah, Im freelancing at the moment.

Holas!

Greetings from Brunei!
heheheh

No photo's. Camera died-ed. Got my first injury though. Broken pinky toe nail. Bled a bit too. Nothing serious.

Okay, got to go now. Need to limp to nearest convenient store which is just right next to the hotel for toothbrush and toothpaste.

Also need to hunt for food. Laters

I dont know what to title this title

The Fronte or Frionte or something sounding like that and that wine bottle with some viking dude holding a sword and wearing that horned helm were the best wines I have ever tasted.

Yaarg!

Jambu for a glass of wine and being my first time there, I was impressed by the actual size Jambu really is. From the outside, it looked kinda small since I only noticed the building. It's pretty big in truth, the only thing is that the toilet only houses one at a time.

I should note that this is our wine excursion. And by 'our' I mean, Soph, Mac, Azreen, Bernard, Jerome, Ivan, Justina and your's truly.

Next, we hit Denise which is basically in the same building as Mojo. That's where I discovered those wines mentioned earlier. I noticed the bottle of the viking dude because of the picture of the viking dude only. Hey, it looked cool to me! The other was a choice made by Mac. A little high end price in my opinion but so worth it. There was also a South African wine named KAYA and one from South Chile labelled Adobe. Azreen pointed out one made or had Tongkat Ali in it.

We had the botles opened at Mojo. Oh, and the lighting fixtures looked like human reproductive organs and one looked like sex toys, with silver light bulbs. The others looked like some form of growth, too bad none bore the resemblence of Hello Kitty. But this happened we're on to the last bottle, I think.

This is us on mild alcohol. Heck, we dont even NEED alcohol in the first place to get conversations going all the wrong way!

Photo's were taken. Jerome said he looked like a giant statue. I looked sedated. Bernard's hiding behind the wine glass. Mac could pass off as a girl, and the girls envied the healthy condition of his hair which was naturally straight and no split ends with minimal care. (Victory for men!)

Wine + munchies = an excursion to MacDonalds for fries, and double cheese burger and a double chickien foldable, I think. We could have gotten to the roadside burger stalls for it but it was closed and we're so posh yo!

Not so much of news

Back to the usual routine. And I just received my other half of last November pay, so I can breathe financially a little easier now. From what the G.M a.k.a General Manager said, we might be out of a job soon. Oh well...

Gotta pick up passport tomorrow. And next week, I'll be in Brunei for a week. Dont bet on any chance of me blogging there, let alone here and I'm a lazy ass. Photo's are out of the question because my camera's sick, Im thinking it may have to do with the light sensor's or something. Even though it's on and everything, I'll be snapping blanks till I turn off and on a couple of times before the lens register an image. I'll get around to getting it fix, eventually.

Speaking of which, I have to convert some cash to Brunei currency.

Starsailor's Four To The Floor and Shark Food, and also Snow Patrol's How To Be Dead songs are playing on my player constantly. Love it. Why I've never heard of them sooner? More like, HOW on Earth I missed them?

What else is new? Hmm... Chinese New Year is coming up so that mean insane pricing on just about everything. Maybe this time, I think I've earned myself a new handphone, both financially and deservingly, considering I've been using my aunt's phone for more than a year already...

Check out Pandora if you have time. Pretty good. I'll end this from a snippet from the lyric from Four To The Floor by Starsailor:

"Four to the floor I was sure, that you would be my girl,

We'd rent a little world, have a little girl."

Fare thee well, 2005

Out of PC range for a while, so to everyone, I wish you all a Kick Ass new year!

Im not sure

If the RM10 was the best or the worst money I've spent yesterday. And in honest, not in a druken stupor sorry ass state, Marten, a fictional character of Questionable Content says it the best.

"My life in a nutshell: I go out to a bar, have some drinks, and starts talking to a girl I don't know who wants to take me back to her place, not for crazy drunken sex, but so she can kick my drunk ass at Scrabble."

Again, apologies for haven't been updating in a long while, just finished 3 days straight of classes and tomorrow I am taking my days off to get passport done. And depending on how my parents go about planning on the painting the house, I am looking foward to 4 straight nights of drunkeness. That is, if I can make it in the first place.

Thanks

Hello again everyone.

Firstly, apologies for being quiet all of a sudden. It's just that there's stuff taht happening in my life right now and it's pretty draining. In other words, I'm just tired of it. And I don't feel like blogging it here too.

In other, more recent and happier news.

Thanks for the well wishes, birthday wishes/cheers and the occasional grandpa-getting-older-joke guys!
You all rock!

The witch queen rocks! Why? because she can dual weild! Dual Weild!! Plus, the headgear she wore when she went to battle looks very nice indeed. Kinda reminds me of the dragon helm in Guild Wars. Speaking of Guild Wars, there was an initial on the barricade at the train station when they were bus evacuating the children. It's stated:
G.W.R

The first that came to mind, Guild Wars refugee!

Yes, I'm a Guild War's fan. :D

Pre-Lunch

So both my bosses are out of the office block so that means time for me to slack a bit off to blog! :D

Now, it's been a while since I really blogged on anything. Since my office are the ONLY certified VUE testing center around Kuching, I had my hands full on handling the Tech support calls, setting up the 3 new machines that will be the new exam sytem, preparing for classes which more often than not end up being cancelled or postponed *grind teeth* and also being the only knowledgeable tech-support guy aroun here *grins*

It's almost done and I'm pretty proud of what I did. Though we do have 2 test administrator to take care of things, I somehow became the person to talk to when it comes to the big stuff, installing the new system, testing out the network, migrating form the old system to the new system and TROUBLESHOOTING *Oh TEH HORROR!*

All there's left to do is to re-wire the network cable so it'll be hidden and not lying on the floor causing possible trip, injury, spill, cussing, etc.

That and having the Channel quality representative coming here to train us, and taking 2 papers so we qualify to administer the new exams.

Major update on the new systems includes 2 CCTV's, 1 in the exam, another at the front serving as the photo capture cam, fingerprinting unit and signature recognition unit which I installed myself. Yes yes I know this is all about me now but hey, i had no prior experience in handling this stuff before so I'm pretty proud of myself.

In other news, I went to the Songwriter's Round at Mojo. Mojo's behind Denis Wine, in fact I think it's an extension of Denis I think. Anyway, I wasn't the performer *cant sing, amateur guitar player, stage fright* but a friend did asked to come over and support. I managed to bring along 3 other friends.

Now, it's my first time being there and I was a little taken back at the entrance fee thing. I was unprepared but thankfully had earlier gone poking at the ATM machine. Whew! Once we got in, it FELT familiar, yet, very different. Kinda like how The Crib felt, before it was under NEW management.

Met a lot of friends there. Some I had not seen or heard in months. We sat at the corner where we can't see the stage but the sound setup was excellent. It's probably just me but some of the singers, I had trouble listening to their lyrics. But hey, RM20, complimentary glass of wine, ORIGINAL songs written AND composed by the singers themselves and can play the guitar, good friends, cosy setting, I like. Hopefully the monthly event works out.

Plus, this whole idea is new. At least in Kuching. I like the idea, it's just that I feel alittle out of place. It's pretty posh you know.

OH!

There's that dude who had a styrofoam shaped like a gun standing outside and was just being weird going all glass-breaking action and aiming with that gun. Weird, and scared a lady off her chair! The poor dear. Gette was there and I got to meet her! FINALLY! :D

Okay, going to hunt for food now.

p/s: Narnia opens on DECEMBER 8TH. Must Watch.

Some rats are gonna die tonight

And by rat I mean those who are 3 feet taller than your average person, standing upright, having claws and teeth and looked like they had an in-breed with lions and wearing armour and and kick ass.

I just to vent off after a tantrum my bike threw this morning on the way to work.

The accelerator cable was stuck and I unwittingly made a Head's up move and 360 donut on the junction of a road. All the while my left hand is griping on the handle bar for fear it may hurt others.

Out of all that, I came out with nothing more than a tiny bloodclot on my right thumb (just on the surface of the skin) and RM5 poorer.

And I think the mechanic who fixed my bike must've 'sedated' her!

Okay.

I was going to write down stuff about me suddenly awash with depression and how strange it is for me to notice it actually coming and yet being concious/logical/rational enough to wonder what may have triggered it or if it's just something in my head.

Then I spilled my coffee. Onto the carpeted floor. Which took me half an hour to clean up the mess and now the whole place will smell like coffee for a week. Sigh, the things that happens in my life. Yes, I'm aware that everyone else will go through this at some point in their lives.

Now, depression stuff. What I have noticed that I, "felt" it coming. In, a sense of the word that is. It's hard to explain, I just know that I'm feeling depressed right now. But the good thing now is, I know it's here and I don't go postal-suicidal-mental shit that I used to. Which, is nice, and strange, at the same time.

AndI know there isn't anything that got me down the past week, or this month. I can't remember what happened last month though. Oh well, Christmas is 6 weeks and 4 days from now. What else? Hmm... Nothing much I think. I am still very much playing Guild Wars and enjoying it, and Tradewinds as well. Though I really need to back up all my stuff on the machine before I reformat the old tinker. And if my connection still feels sluggish, I am either going to call their support line and give them an earful or just drop by the Clicker's store and give them an earful. Either way, I get to release some stress.

Maybe this whole feeling depressed thing is just some end of the year sympthom thingamado. Or maybe Christmas is around the corner and they're gonna capitalise on the Christmas lover's theme, again, like with all other festivals. Or maybe I should just stop wondering about it and do something to feel better, like blogging it here.

In about 4 weeks from now, I'll be really 24. Going to have lunch now.