is 5 minutes break such a bad thing?

you know, its a lot better to ask a person what is the person doing rather than blindly accuse them of something they OBVIOUSLY did not do?

By then, I just gave up on trying to say anything.

New Year's Eve, Chinese version

In about 11 hours or so from now, my area and just about anywhere else in Kuching will be turned into a battlefield. Hopefully there won't be any shrapnel but then again, anything can happen eh.

In yesterday's news, I hope that fucking ah beng twat in his fucking cheapass Wira konon maok jadi Lancer tek die in a fucking horrible accident all mangled up. Ah, much better. :D

Tonight, big family dinner, loud explosions all over and days of entertaining guest and relatives and visiting. I end my post with this song.

Do What You Have To Do

What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...

and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize

that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go

a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you

I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go

Ahem

Connection is still wonky. Drained of energry for the day cause by 9 something I'm already feeling the weight of my eyelids. Soles of my feet are aching. My room is piled with books and PC parts, not to mention paintings and flower decorations that was supposed to be put back in place in the living room.

Tomorrow, printer, monitor, more books (geek) and hopefully a box full of network cables. Mmm... cables. Need to think of where to place/fix the shelves that I'll either buy or make myself.

Intersting, as I'm writing this down, my internet connection dropped, again. And yes, I've tried every diagnostics in the book. And just a little FYI, the music clip that they used for the trailer Memories of a Geisha came from the Last Samurai soundtrack. :)

p/s: It took 10 minutes to get a connection just to post this. lol

Sigh

I need a bookshelf. My collection of books just got a major leap. All techy stuff. That's how much of a geek I am. And chances are, I won't bother to open them. That's how much of a bum I am.

Haven't got much to say here except that I've got my hands full. Not killing things in Tyria tonight (i.e online gaming playing Guild Wars) because I lost count after 3,4 IP addresses I got swithched too. That and almost an hour of Internet connection Blackout as in i literally cannot connect. Nothing wrong with my phoneline as fas as I can tell. Nothing fried or smelling like burnt plastic. And Checking the report coming from my modem, it says the last fault why the connection failed was 'VC down'. What the hell is VC anyway?

Piles of books dumped on my bed have nowhere to go. I seriously need a bookshelf. Thinking of building them permanently on my wall. The back of the house has so much wood just waiting to be hacked, sawed, sanded, painted, etc.

Why we have a healthy stockpile of wood at the back of the house? Lets just say my family has this habit of keeping stuff. That I attribute to my granny. The carpenting I got it from dad who probably got it from his dad.

I ended up with having both of those traits in me. Oy...

Oh, and the time it took me to write this all down. I got my IP changed, 6 times. Another thing, Brunei drivers are far more curteous than say, Kuching drivers. I, am a living proof (cussing at your back for driving slow, cutting, not giving way, etc). What else, It's midnight already I reckon and its raining and I should find some space in my crowded bed to sleep. Night.

Lucy, Im home!

I only know 1 person named Lucy and she's a hollywood star.

Anywho, I'm back home in sweet ol' Pussyville I mean Kuching. So much to do and so much thoughts to put down.

So here's what to expect (or not) in upcoming post (if i get my lazy arse to it).

Being awake at late night alone and unable to sleep can be depressing. Especially me, single, alone in a foreign country and damn awake.

The past week in Brunei, I have started dreaming. Thing is, I dont realise that Im dreaming about it till I wake up. And the dreams seemed real. It felt real. Strange, very strange.

Now, I gotta go and settle my resignation and stuff like report writings and the like. Yeah, Im freelancing at the moment.

Holas!

Greetings from Brunei!
heheheh

No photo's. Camera died-ed. Got my first injury though. Broken pinky toe nail. Bled a bit too. Nothing serious.

Okay, got to go now. Need to limp to nearest convenient store which is just right next to the hotel for toothbrush and toothpaste.

Also need to hunt for food. Laters

I dont know what to title this title

The Fronte or Frionte or something sounding like that and that wine bottle with some viking dude holding a sword and wearing that horned helm were the best wines I have ever tasted.

Yaarg!

Jambu for a glass of wine and being my first time there, I was impressed by the actual size Jambu really is. From the outside, it looked kinda small since I only noticed the building. It's pretty big in truth, the only thing is that the toilet only houses one at a time.

I should note that this is our wine excursion. And by 'our' I mean, Soph, Mac, Azreen, Bernard, Jerome, Ivan, Justina and your's truly.

Next, we hit Denise which is basically in the same building as Mojo. That's where I discovered those wines mentioned earlier. I noticed the bottle of the viking dude because of the picture of the viking dude only. Hey, it looked cool to me! The other was a choice made by Mac. A little high end price in my opinion but so worth it. There was also a South African wine named KAYA and one from South Chile labelled Adobe. Azreen pointed out one made or had Tongkat Ali in it.

We had the botles opened at Mojo. Oh, and the lighting fixtures looked like human reproductive organs and one looked like sex toys, with silver light bulbs. The others looked like some form of growth, too bad none bore the resemblence of Hello Kitty. But this happened we're on to the last bottle, I think.

This is us on mild alcohol. Heck, we dont even NEED alcohol in the first place to get conversations going all the wrong way!

Photo's were taken. Jerome said he looked like a giant statue. I looked sedated. Bernard's hiding behind the wine glass. Mac could pass off as a girl, and the girls envied the healthy condition of his hair which was naturally straight and no split ends with minimal care. (Victory for men!)

Wine + munchies = an excursion to MacDonalds for fries, and double cheese burger and a double chickien foldable, I think. We could have gotten to the roadside burger stalls for it but it was closed and we're so posh yo!

Not so much of news

Back to the usual routine. And I just received my other half of last November pay, so I can breathe financially a little easier now. From what the G.M a.k.a General Manager said, we might be out of a job soon. Oh well...

Gotta pick up passport tomorrow. And next week, I'll be in Brunei for a week. Dont bet on any chance of me blogging there, let alone here and I'm a lazy ass. Photo's are out of the question because my camera's sick, Im thinking it may have to do with the light sensor's or something. Even though it's on and everything, I'll be snapping blanks till I turn off and on a couple of times before the lens register an image. I'll get around to getting it fix, eventually.

Speaking of which, I have to convert some cash to Brunei currency.

Starsailor's Four To The Floor and Shark Food, and also Snow Patrol's How To Be Dead songs are playing on my player constantly. Love it. Why I've never heard of them sooner? More like, HOW on Earth I missed them?

What else is new? Hmm... Chinese New Year is coming up so that mean insane pricing on just about everything. Maybe this time, I think I've earned myself a new handphone, both financially and deservingly, considering I've been using my aunt's phone for more than a year already...

Check out Pandora if you have time. Pretty good. I'll end this from a snippet from the lyric from Four To The Floor by Starsailor:

"Four to the floor I was sure, that you would be my girl,

We'd rent a little world, have a little girl."

Fare thee well, 2005

Out of PC range for a while, so to everyone, I wish you all a Kick Ass new year!

Im not sure

If the RM10 was the best or the worst money I've spent yesterday. And in honest, not in a druken stupor sorry ass state, Marten, a fictional character of Questionable Content says it the best.

"My life in a nutshell: I go out to a bar, have some drinks, and starts talking to a girl I don't know who wants to take me back to her place, not for crazy drunken sex, but so she can kick my drunk ass at Scrabble."

Again, apologies for haven't been updating in a long while, just finished 3 days straight of classes and tomorrow I am taking my days off to get passport done. And depending on how my parents go about planning on the painting the house, I am looking foward to 4 straight nights of drunkeness. That is, if I can make it in the first place.

Thanks

Hello again everyone.

Firstly, apologies for being quiet all of a sudden. It's just that there's stuff taht happening in my life right now and it's pretty draining. In other words, I'm just tired of it. And I don't feel like blogging it here too.

In other, more recent and happier news.

Thanks for the well wishes, birthday wishes/cheers and the occasional grandpa-getting-older-joke guys!
You all rock!

The witch queen rocks! Why? because she can dual weild! Dual Weild!! Plus, the headgear she wore when she went to battle looks very nice indeed. Kinda reminds me of the dragon helm in Guild Wars. Speaking of Guild Wars, there was an initial on the barricade at the train station when they were bus evacuating the children. It's stated:
G.W.R

The first that came to mind, Guild Wars refugee!

Yes, I'm a Guild War's fan. :D

Pre-Lunch

So both my bosses are out of the office block so that means time for me to slack a bit off to blog! :D

Now, it's been a while since I really blogged on anything. Since my office are the ONLY certified VUE testing center around Kuching, I had my hands full on handling the Tech support calls, setting up the 3 new machines that will be the new exam sytem, preparing for classes which more often than not end up being cancelled or postponed *grind teeth* and also being the only knowledgeable tech-support guy aroun here *grins*

It's almost done and I'm pretty proud of what I did. Though we do have 2 test administrator to take care of things, I somehow became the person to talk to when it comes to the big stuff, installing the new system, testing out the network, migrating form the old system to the new system and TROUBLESHOOTING *Oh TEH HORROR!*

All there's left to do is to re-wire the network cable so it'll be hidden and not lying on the floor causing possible trip, injury, spill, cussing, etc.

That and having the Channel quality representative coming here to train us, and taking 2 papers so we qualify to administer the new exams.

Major update on the new systems includes 2 CCTV's, 1 in the exam, another at the front serving as the photo capture cam, fingerprinting unit and signature recognition unit which I installed myself. Yes yes I know this is all about me now but hey, i had no prior experience in handling this stuff before so I'm pretty proud of myself.

In other news, I went to the Songwriter's Round at Mojo. Mojo's behind Denis Wine, in fact I think it's an extension of Denis I think. Anyway, I wasn't the performer *cant sing, amateur guitar player, stage fright* but a friend did asked to come over and support. I managed to bring along 3 other friends.

Now, it's my first time being there and I was a little taken back at the entrance fee thing. I was unprepared but thankfully had earlier gone poking at the ATM machine. Whew! Once we got in, it FELT familiar, yet, very different. Kinda like how The Crib felt, before it was under NEW management.

Met a lot of friends there. Some I had not seen or heard in months. We sat at the corner where we can't see the stage but the sound setup was excellent. It's probably just me but some of the singers, I had trouble listening to their lyrics. But hey, RM20, complimentary glass of wine, ORIGINAL songs written AND composed by the singers themselves and can play the guitar, good friends, cosy setting, I like. Hopefully the monthly event works out.

Plus, this whole idea is new. At least in Kuching. I like the idea, it's just that I feel alittle out of place. It's pretty posh you know.

OH!

There's that dude who had a styrofoam shaped like a gun standing outside and was just being weird going all glass-breaking action and aiming with that gun. Weird, and scared a lady off her chair! The poor dear. Gette was there and I got to meet her! FINALLY! :D

Okay, going to hunt for food now.

p/s: Narnia opens on DECEMBER 8TH. Must Watch.

Some rats are gonna die tonight

And by rat I mean those who are 3 feet taller than your average person, standing upright, having claws and teeth and looked like they had an in-breed with lions and wearing armour and and kick ass.

I just to vent off after a tantrum my bike threw this morning on the way to work.

The accelerator cable was stuck and I unwittingly made a Head's up move and 360 donut on the junction of a road. All the while my left hand is griping on the handle bar for fear it may hurt others.

Out of all that, I came out with nothing more than a tiny bloodclot on my right thumb (just on the surface of the skin) and RM5 poorer.

And I think the mechanic who fixed my bike must've 'sedated' her!

Okay.

I was going to write down stuff about me suddenly awash with depression and how strange it is for me to notice it actually coming and yet being concious/logical/rational enough to wonder what may have triggered it or if it's just something in my head.

Then I spilled my coffee. Onto the carpeted floor. Which took me half an hour to clean up the mess and now the whole place will smell like coffee for a week. Sigh, the things that happens in my life. Yes, I'm aware that everyone else will go through this at some point in their lives.

Now, depression stuff. What I have noticed that I, "felt" it coming. In, a sense of the word that is. It's hard to explain, I just know that I'm feeling depressed right now. But the good thing now is, I know it's here and I don't go postal-suicidal-mental shit that I used to. Which, is nice, and strange, at the same time.

AndI know there isn't anything that got me down the past week, or this month. I can't remember what happened last month though. Oh well, Christmas is 6 weeks and 4 days from now. What else? Hmm... Nothing much I think. I am still very much playing Guild Wars and enjoying it, and Tradewinds as well. Though I really need to back up all my stuff on the machine before I reformat the old tinker. And if my connection still feels sluggish, I am either going to call their support line and give them an earful or just drop by the Clicker's store and give them an earful. Either way, I get to release some stress.

Maybe this whole feeling depressed thing is just some end of the year sympthom thingamado. Or maybe Christmas is around the corner and they're gonna capitalise on the Christmas lover's theme, again, like with all other festivals. Or maybe I should just stop wondering about it and do something to feel better, like blogging it here.

In about 4 weeks from now, I'll be really 24. Going to have lunch now.

A small matter

In fact, it's not so much of a anything at all really.

I wanted to post something yesterday but I was facing the Great Wall of Mental Blockade. And I was happily playing Trade Winds2.

On my way back I noticed bubbles on the road again! I'm just observant and noticing bubbles on the road kind of puts my mind at ease. To me, bubbles reminds of happy times, that as kids, we weren't really in a hurry to grow up. Well, I speak for myself actually. Just give me games or books and I'll be content to play or read and just let the world carry on.

I still feel like that, ESPECIALLY with what I'm playing now. Heh, A 24 year old grown-up that still acts like a little kid.

Anyone watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose? Watched it with friends at midnight as Star Cineplex and we hung out till it was past 3 a.m before we all head home. Courtroom drama but it's based on a true story that got me. I still get the jitters, since Guild Wars skinned one of the town areas for the Haloween celebration and I play the game til almost 2 in the morning, it's get's a little freaky.

I know it's all in my head...
But.

P/S: Am going to disappear for a while. Reason, Trade Winds 2.

Postal Day

Not postal as in apocolyptic-snap-your-neck postal, just the posting of stuff and letters and stuff.

I spent a major portion of my lunch hour today posting stuff, and letter. Hopefully, I'll land a better paying job, or at least some new work environment.

At this gift shop called Valentine, I think, which is right next to 3.99 Enterprise, I was shopping for last minute things. Yes, there I admit, I suck at time management. I still do, sadly. At least I admit them than saying "Oh, traffic was terrible" blah blah blah.

Then I noticed a jewelry/make-up/trinket box in the shape of a COFFIN! Cool! And they had the image of Jack Skellington! And there's black and white dice! With Jack Skellington's face as dots! I have an idea who might be interested in getting the dice...

There's this lady. Don't go jumping to conclusions yet. I think her name's Tracy, Carrie, or something with a '-ry' ending name. She's a friendly person. I was just asking about the coffin thing and the dice, and we ended up talking for quite abit. From stuff like our current job, salary payment's, car's and fuel price hike and parking and trasffic jam's and other possible location that I could've mailed my stuff. She seem's very capable as well as knowledgeable of things herself, and she has good verbal command of English. Which is different from what I had perceived earlier which was she's the quiet, not so into talking and probably a bit stuck up and probably not so good in English.

Somehow, this event reminds me of songs about 2 different strangers meeting and having a nice conversation although they both probably feel a bit awkward by this. Meh.

It's nice to know that the whole world hasn't turned against itself in suspicion, and that I should really try not to perceive people being mostly unfriendly. Bad mental thoughts.

Wil and Art was at the graphic studio shop doing some prints and stuff. Art and I as always was talking about the game Guild Wars. Wil was looking at us like we're two Japanese people conversing. Ah, Guild Wars, My life will never be the same again.

Okay, if you're bored by game speak, you can close this page now.




Really.






Speaking of Guild Wars, I've finally come around to getting my third character up, and he's a Ranger. This build I'm going for follows the soncept of Neverwinter Night's Arcane Archer. Except he has a longer range than spellcaster's, and he'll probably bring down a target in 3, 4 shots before the melee's could get in range. I know this is wishful thinking but it is possible with the right set up and the right victim target. Oh, so many configurations to try!

That and my second build which I had intended to be a Vampire-based build, may have chosen the wrong profession. Hmmm, Maybe my last character, I'll use Warrior/Necromancer build instead. And maybe I'll name him, Grigorion Mortison.

Randomness

Well, the movie Kemusnahan Doom wasn't as bad as I prophesized it would be *ok, ok I was actually eager to watch it*. Other than that, all of us at the cinema there had a good laugh when the direct B.M of the title was displayed. So... i can't of another phrase for it except, mati pucuk, or potong stim.

I mean the whole close up of a complex moving and closing the doors or vaults or whatever and the camera zooms out to focus on the title like it was so awe-like, and then translation had to come in. I loved the FPS view in the movie! and that BFG, which I thought it originally meant Big Farking Gun but the monitor displays it as Bio-Force Gun and Sarge(played by Teh Rock) calls it "Big Fat Gun." Yeah, it was filtered.

The BFG did looked toned down in the movie, but in the movie scope, there's no way you can miss what the BFG looks like. And like Mac said, they did missed out on the rocket launcher.

Other memorable bits from the movie:

Portman describing his holiday as "locking himself in a hotel room with 3 beautiful she-boys".

The Kid retorting his handle, The Kid. "The Kid??"

Duke going "Say my name baby." Yeah! Say it! WOO!!! *ahem*

One of the marines, Goat, I think, says: "We're now acouple million lightyears from breakfast". After they used the alien transport system.

Reaper explaning to The Kid (The Kid??) after what the guy in the wheel chair meant by UAC making rare, minute mistakes "It means he got to Mars while his other half got lost halfway across the galaxy". Or something similiar.

Sarge calling the wheelchair guy, Pinky. Yes, Pinky.

Pinky asking the Japanese dude why he's called Mac when he doesn't look like one. Mac said his real name which I can't remember and Pinky: "Oh."

Sarge ordering Portman to "Go down the hole"

Pinky aiming his pistol at Sarge and Sarge looking past Pinky in horror and Pinky going all-realisation-I'm-so-dead look saying "There's something behind me, isn't it?"

Sarge before being pulled away saying "I'm not supposed to die!"

FPS!!! Not Frames per second you dolt!

More, but that would just spoil the ending. Hee...

In other news, I had confirmed my suspicions that there are women who do view a moment out on a motorbike with a boyfriend as romantic. Regardless of wheter its a one of them RM40,000 800cc super bikes or choppers, or a day in, day out regular joe motorbike. If anyone has seen my bike, this doesn't apply. And I have this fear of bringing anyone else on that thing for the matter. Not until I can budget enough to fix the darn thing, which I'm pretty pissed at myself because the cost I put in for my car is pretty much wasted because the damn thing kept on giving problems one after another and I've decided to sell it to stop myself bleeding financially dry.

You know, coming to think of it, I've spent more time going around with my bike than the car. Hmm... I've been a very bad, bad bike owner. She needs a total makeover. The body needs to be removed of rust and re-sprayed because my dad took upon himself to spray it black. Black's cool, I like the colour, but I'm not about to risk my life using it at night. Maybe a concoction of bright metallic red and dark, gloomy purple... Or gold mix. Hmm...

Then she need's new legs, i.e. shock absorbers. and new shoes, i.e. rims. I have my mind set on those racing 3-spoke rims, but none of them I've seen are chromed. That, and another overhaul of the system. And also the a complete re-wire of the whole thing.

New exhaust. Lord knows there's so much rust there one can get a tetanus infection just by looking at it! In fact, my bike needs a total do-over badly for the last... 5,6 years since I got hold of it? The last thing I bought was a pair of grips which is too big and has nearly fallen apart, if not already. That was years ago. And the last overhaul was 4 years ago. Bad, bad bike owner.

Oh, and I was disscussing with my colleague the prospect of our individual future, financially and calculating the cost of marriage based on our current situation. It's bleak, to say the least, and I'll probably need to work as a slave for 53 months just to save that amount of money. Heh.

Little Info

I was thinking for a name for my Necromancer character in Guild Wars and this came to mind:

Rigor Mortis

I have no idea how this pop into my head but I never used that name. And now I have it stucked in my head since. Only now did I know what it means and it may have shed some light as to where or how this word came to mind.

Rigor mortis means the stiffening of the muscles. This is usually happens after death. For more info, the answers are here.

I think all the hours accumulated watching CSI's is giving me weird vocabulary. Heh...

In other news, what's your best or memorable or funny conversation snippet? I know there's more than just one but remember back and just pick. Funny, thoughtful, insightful, whatever. It could be as early as 5 minutes ago or ages ago. Here's mine:

Me: You destroyed my happy place!

Her: Kinda like me throwing a grenade in there, huh?

Me: After you laced it with napalm!

Her: Ooh! And flying a bomber plane on a carpet bombing run!

*Another friend sitting with us laughs and smiles*

So, what's yours? If you're reading this, consider yourself tagged.

P/s: If you haven't figured it out by now, it's her.

Beautiful people

You know (yes, i know you don't know what I know now quit being smartsy pantsy), it's kinda funny how serious stuff comes into my mental thoughts at the strangest situations. Like right now, in front of the PC, in a classroom, attending a CAD course on a Friday at 1:45 p.m.

You all pretty much noticed, i mean, it's pretty obvious that all my entries this year are pretty much shallow and incoherent. Incoherent I may be, but writing shallow, superficial stuff like this makes me sounds like a total retard. Well, when I read my own writings again.

So, this is just probably for me and you, the reader to know that, I am perfectly capable of having serious thoughts. Like why do people act the way they do. Let's take that for the:

DEEP PONDERING THOUGHTS OF THE DAY

*in a booming loud voice*

See, some people can be themselves real nice and make other people feel good being around them. Some can be jackass by themselves and people get annoyed. Some just roll their eyes and laugh it off. Some are just laid back and they don't worry too much about things. I mean, poop happens. Some find this an attractive side of that person. Some panic like OMGWTFIMGONNADIE... I, find this, hillarious, and worrying.

Some people just have empathy. In this case, that means:

"The action of understanding, being aware of, being sensitive to, and vicariously experiencing the feelings, thoughts, and experience of another of either the past or present without having the feelings, thoughts, and experience fully communicated in an objectively explicit manner; also : the capacity for empathy"

Just go here for the meaning.

In other words, these people can pick up on other people's emotion. Like when some one's being real anal and other's restraining themselves real hard from smothering him/her with cyanide. Some are just perpetually blur. I know that I can be that, and also a blockhead. And annoying. I find this trait, a love hate thing. seeing some one being blur is funny and adorable if that someone is the one you adore. Annoying when you try to explain the same thing or repeating it again, AND again to the point of you either break down and cry or just laugh it off. But that's just my point of view.

Some people can be the best of pals at one time, flip 360 in a snap like that person is your worst, most hated living creature. By this, most women would attribute that to their time of the month and that's understandable. I've taken my share of battery.

What I'm talking about is the those have been sharpening that scapel-sharp dagger laced with arsenic in secret, waiting for that perfect time to lunge it at the back of your spine, paralysing you chest down, or stab it at your heart, from the side. Then you wonder just what you did to deserve this. Well, nothing, you don't deserve that kind of shit. Just rest assured in your thought that unless this person who did this to you change, their future is bleak. And that's just an understatement.

Some can be independent and flourish. Some need to cling just to survive. This 2 traits will more often than not pave a rough road in any relationships. A sense of gyro balance. Too clingy and it's a tie-down/major turn off. Too independent could result in thinking that things may not work out.

Some people who have taken so much toxic/shit in their lives that they either armor themselves better than a prickly porcuppine or that other animal that rolls into a ball of shield. That, or they use humor to help them tackle their lives. Some just 'switch' off their emotions, that is, they don't give a worms ass about anything and nothing.

Some worry always (nearly always) about what the other person is thinking about them. Some just couldn't be bothered about what others thinks about them.

Some have been living in a world of daisies and some have accepted that life's hard. In such cases when these 2 opposite world's meet, there's always jealousy. One wishing they had an easy life, another admiring the other's steel determination and hard resolve. But from what I've seen and heard in this piece of rock, Ditsy Daisy's would just bury these Little John's with mockery and insults. Konon la ada bank mak bapak ya. Kononla popular gila. Sik cukup gik maok maki hamun orang lain...

Some are just plain intimidated by another. Not that the other person always intimidates them, it's just them being themselves. I should know. It's better then to have that person really intimidating the other.

Some takes their stand on their side based on their own view of the fact of the matter and get worked up about it. Especially when the other person is also the same kind, except that they're looking in the opposite direction. And then they are those who are "in the grey/gray". Not to say that they dont want to take sides and make things worse, but because they can see both their perspective and know that they're either both right, or both wrong. These people have learn to see things in another window. Kinda like being empathy.

But in the end, we all end up wondering why we act the way we act. Because this is a big cauldron of soup, filled with many different spices and herbs and vegetables and meats and stuff. I never said it's perfect, we are they way we are. It's only up to ourselves to fix it, and having friends that can move you to get you to fix it is better. After all, at some point in life, we were like that, or that, or even THAT.

I'm thinking right now that there's alot of people who may feel this hits closer to home. My blog, and I unload what ever shitload off my chest.

OMG

Aiyo!! I can't believe I went to change my profile in teh frenster!

I am this bored and this anxious to go home and "get back into the world of Tyria"(play Guild Wars la...)